Journal 10-16-25 3:12pm
I haven’t written in so long.
Substance comes first, style will find its way back on the paper given enough time.
I feel there’s so much to report, maybe I’ll just do some vignettes. Get the backlog out of the system first.
#1
I finished the LB Marathon a few sundays ago! Achieved my 2 goals: ran it in under 6 hours (5:53) and did not walk for any portion of it. It felt so good seeing T, L and E at the race, thank you so much for the support.
2025 was a wild ride for running, ran my first 5k, 10k and HM leading up to the marathon. Shout out to J for getting me back into running/with the Berean crew (:
In an epic twist of irony, I end up severely spraining my ankle a week after the marathon. I am currently limping around with an ankle brace.
#2
I graduated from my Re:Generation group after 1 year of attending monday meetings! That’s a whole post by itself but in short received a lot of healing and underwent another significant chapter of character change. Thank you so much to T, T, A and D for coming out. I’m kind of a stranger to having people show up for support and it profoundly affected me.
#3
With the marathon out of the way, I have been pushing hard on investing into friendships and social communities. What good is it if you are bowling alone? To be sure, the domain of Work and Family demanded a lot of attention the past few years. But I also know it was self-inflicted by perceiving life a certain way, coping in unhealthy ways and running away from certain Truths.
Brainstorming with T in the evenings, reading books on friendships and committing to certain deadlines have been helping. More to come.
Thankful for the friendships and communities I have. Looking forward to growing deeper in existing relationships, as well as forging new ones. And I apologize to the relationships that I did not put time into, for both good and bad reasons. I hope I will be able to make amends.
#4
Goals for physical fitness (By Jun 01 2026?):
Get to 175 pounds (181 as of this morning)
Bench Press 1x BW
OH Press .75x BW
Squat 1.5x BW
Deadlift 2x BW
1 Muscle Up
10 Pull Ups
5 sec handstand hold
1 HSPU
1 Pistol squat on each leg
Full Bridge
Full Split, side/front (???)
#5
Berean has been such a blessing. So much growth in Bible reading, learning doctrine, praying and being part of a loving/accountable community. The “high” is gone after 2 years, but it continues to be a blessing. To serve and to be served. Being able to have meals with Fam members and see even for a brief hour or two of how their homes operate has been so valuable to me in learning by watching and listening.
Fun fact: if you are around people with kids and they seem to be happy, having kids seems less scary*
#6
Dating/Marriage is something that I continue to focus on (but not overly so). Sometimes it is so difficult balancing 2 pieces of paper. To just let it happen and also to be very intentional. To be both patient and proactive. To pay attention to what others say and also to take responsibility for my own decision.
#7
Lots that can be said about Work. But it is everything, everywhere, all at once. Deeply meaningful. Intimately learning about myself, God and others through it. Can I be at peace knowing I did the very best I could Today? In light of tomorrow? Eternity?
#8
I have been reading/listening through Ecclesiastes these days as part of my chronological bible reading plan. What a crazy book…
God, who are you? What is our relationship like right now? Is it both close and far? What am I doing well on? What do I need to improve?
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; 24 And see if there be any [a]hurtful way in me,
And lead me in the everlasting way.
Psalms 139
#9
Why have we not solved indenting yet for blogging? It’s 2025.
#10
Here’s pixelated kisses by Joji. My man is back.
